Are you afraid of emotional intimacy and yet crave it deeply? This story will inspire you.
Meghan was a successful young woman with a bright professional career. She carried herself with intelligence and business smarts in the workplace and was highly regarded by her peers. When she came to me, she revealed a deep insecurity right below the surface, mostly in the context of her personal relationships.
She also told me she was not very optimistic about the practice of past life regression. A friend of hers had worked with me previously with great success but Meghan was too pragmatic, she felt, and too analytical to really allow the experience. We discussed what she was looking for, what were her challenges. She described often having bouts of depression and loneliness, even while in relationships. She did not feel like it came from being physically alone but rather feeling unfulfilled.
Why would Meghan feel lonely? She is attractive, intelligent, has a social life and friends and a promising career. I knew diving into her past lives will give us answers.
The first of two lives we visited together saw Meghan as a geisha-type servant. She was a reluctant servant, from a poor family. Her only chance at any kind of life was afforded because she was beautiful and not for her intelligence. She saw a younger man who had shown interest in her and loved her. Meghan observed he seemed familiar so I asked if she recognized him as anyone in this life. She said it was her brother. This happens frequently and the knowing that our loved ones stay connected to us from one life to the next, even in different guises, is very reassuring.
We visited the scene of the geisha’s death where she was surrounded by other women and it was a positive, comforting transition experience.
In another life, Meghan’s soul lived as a young woman in the swinging twenties. Her life was not care-free however. She was attached to a thug of a man who kept her close to him and living a life of near servitude. He did the same with many other young ladies but she was not allowed to get close to anyone else. Later, the man changed. He lost all his money and got sick. He made amends for his harsh treatment of her to the point where she actually fell in love with him.
Following the lifetimes Meghan experienced, she connected with her spirit guides who were gentle and reassuring. They provided insights into what we had seen.
From the life of the geisha, Meghan needed to understand the perils of living her life with barriers put up around her heart. Even though her life seemed to be one of social and economic inferiority, the opportunities to connect with others were there, yet she missed them. She did not know any real happiness because she did not let anyone in.
From the young girl in the 1920s, Meghan learned a lesson of patience with others and looking below the surface to see their true nature. The man treated her horribly but had some good in him that she eventually got to see. In order to do that, she had to let her walls down enough to get closer to him.
Meghan also needed to see that superficial impressions really do not matter. As who she is today, she has been putting a lot of energy into worrying about what her family thought of her. She had to realize that, ultimately, those opinions really had no bearing on her ability to live a happy life with a positive self-image. Superficial concerns about the value of her home or the high-end car she drove only revealed her own insecurities. For Meghan, these insecurities manifested as barriers around her feelings where she would not let anyone in beyond an outer wall of emotions and fear.
The life of the geisha showed her that she needs to allow herself to be loved for who she is inside, not for how beautiful her face, body or possessions appear to be. The the path to follow in this life was clear – allow people to get closer to her core and to lower her walls. The fear of emotional intimacy she was experiencing was really her fear of being honest within her own mind about herself and that she needed to see herself in a positive light so others could as well.
Meghan left our session surprised at her ability to look that far inside herself and confident she better understood where her anxieties were coming from and what she needed to do to address them.
Now I would love to hear from you. How does this story resonate with you? What thoughts does it provoke?
Thinking status being so low is at odds with true self and true nature. When you’re in a really untrue situation not reflecting yourself most of the people can’t relate to you or you to them. When you are held in by your position in society it has got to be Depressing. Both lives were highly depressing cause she did not wish to be a geisha and cause she would not willingly have chosen to be with someone who treats her horribly even though it gets better in the end, those scars will not so easily be removed and in fact seems that she still held them. I truly doubt there was anyone to get to know in the geisha environment. Also feel if she had free will she would have left the guy who treated her horribly and if she were able to live on her own, support herself. It is great tho to realize outer objects have no real meaning but things like being able to have a house and even health insurance are good. It seems hard to have a relationship that works when the last 2 lifetimes have been so highly fraught with being inferior. Seems some soul healing is needed so the soul can just be happy to be and feel good just to be alive. Seems the simple joys of life have been denied this being for too long. Seems too she may not have found her true calling as per work. When you are happier with your job your life can more easily attract love.
This story resonates almost eerily with me, in that other than gender, Meghan’s self-situation feels exactly like my own. I hope someday to be able to explore a session of past life regression– and that Meghan has been able to find a lasting sense of self love through her’s.
Interesting, but it doesn’t bring any thoughts
I find the story very fascinating and makes me think about my own. I have been told different times that one of my purposes in this life is to learn all about love so I wonder if I have put down my walls enough to receive and give love? I tried to take your Love seminar but money is little bit tight right now so may be next time. Love your work.
Interesting. I wonder how her relationship to her brother may have reflected any experiences from her previous life. Like if she created distance out of a subconscious guilt? Just curious how that would connect.
I was happy that she found love in the man that treated her poorly and with such control. I hope that through deep forgiveness she can release any feelings that her relationships control or change her happiness.
Thank you for sharing. It is reassuring to remember that you are here.
Expanding our concepts of who we are and what we are helps me to return my attention to my heart and live a more productive and fulfilling life.
I resonate with this story. I too feel completely alone, as if no one understands me so I feel hopeless to let anyone in, I say “what’s the point, they’ll abandon me anyway.” I am concerned of what my family thinks of me and almost act out in rebellion to ensure I don’t end up like them when I feel like my life is exactly like theirs. I’ve loved a man whom I saw the best in even though he’s a drug and alcohol addict. I fell in love with his potential. Now, I’m disgusted with him, yet I know his true nature is only of love. So I’m choosing to go with that moving forward. To practice forgiveness and seeing the good in him. I would so love to just be accepted for who I am. After giving birth to my daughter I have had an awakening, being more empathic, intuitive, sensitive, alive yet I feel so stuck in my life, learning to trust and have faith that I am evolving and changing and praying this is going to help all of my selves in all aspects of time. Opening my heart and listening to it is where I am at today to accept myself just as I am. I may feel like alone but I’m not lonely.